Well today was my friend Katherine's 22nd birthday! I just got home from hanging out at her house, which was a lot of fun. Except for this one part where on of Ian's exes (from high school) came over and introduced herself and told me to make sure I am doing what makes me happy and that Ian wasn't a nice person in the past, and she doesn't know if he's changed and to be careful.

I really appreciate the sentiment, but even if that was God himself sending me a message, I am not going to listen to it.

I am happy with Ian. And yes, he can be mean, and yes he can have a terrible temper, and yes he can be incredibly selfish and self-absorbed. But those are all things I accept about him. And I think the thing that is making him work in this relationship is that he is trying to change. He is trying to be less mean and keep his temper in check. And while I still worry about his selfishness, I feel like his coming to Indianapolis after he graduates, if he keeps his word on that, will be a really big sign of his ability to act selflessly. I can never know how he will change, but he makes me incredibly happy most of the time.

I don't know why she came into my life to tell me those things. I am thinking in themes and signs tonight, and I don't get the point of that. I have no doubts about us right now, and I am unlikely to start just because of that.

I am still so discombobulated.