I think the hardest parts of my breakup with Ian, and maybe of most of my breakups, is when the person you break up with immediately goes out and finds someone new. I think Simeon's Twin can back me up on this concept.

It's not that you don't want them to be happy. You just don't want them to be happy with someone else, and especially not right away. I mean, I know what rebounds are and I know they generally don't work and everybody ends up hurt, but it really sucks to think what Ian is doing right now, that he could be out with some new girl, some old girl, any other girl, falling in love and having a wonderful time with her.

That is what made our last breakup so fucking messy.

It's not that I want him to be with me right now. I just don't want to be immediately and irrevocably replaced right away. I don't want to be completely forgotten so fast. I want him to be moving on with his life, not with someone else right now. And I have no control over it.

When my mind gets down like this, it means it's time to go to bed. It does me no good to dwell on the past. We are over and that is the end of the conversation. I am happier without anyone new, and that speaks a lot more to him about how important he was. I don't need to try and replace him to be happy. I am happy on my own, in my own way.