If I don't force myself to write tonight, it's not going to happen and then I won't ever hop back on the train. Sorry for the temporary derailment. I am a bit busy trying to squeeze the absolute most I can out of the last month here at school. And so far it has been a riot. I do need to work on getting a bit more sleep as I am barely functional today. I am literally going to sleep as soon as I finish this.

So, I am going to put off the Forgiveness Project for a little while, mostly because I got off on the timing and don't feel like I can do it justice tonight.

Along my desk, I have post-it notes stuck down, with names and days written all over them. Every person who has made me smile, or laugh, or touched my soul deep down to let me know exactly what, even bigger than just the swim team, has kept me at school. Every wonderful person who has listened to me b&m about Ian, or helped me ignore or forget him, they are coming out of the woodwork to celebrate what feels like, to me at least, the end of an amazing ride. Yeah, way to go right? Getting all sappy. The reality is, it has been a lot more drinking and riotous behavior than I have ever let myself do, and while I really feel unhealthy today, tomorrow's Monday and that means the start of another week. And this week just happens to be special...

It's my Birthday on Thursday!

Now normally you know, I am not one to get all gushy about birthdays, as evidenced by my general use of the time to evaluate my life (I seem to do that, uh, ALL the time actually, with different excuses), but this year, I am just plain excited. Why? Because I am happy with where I am, and who I am, and who I am going to become. I have wonderful people all around me, and an open road in front of me...

Okay I've got to go. It seems that I can't help but be a big ol' sap tonight! (Maybe it's the "Walking On Sunshine" a la Aly & AJ blasting in the background? I do love me some pop music...)