i know obviously that you didn't invite me to your birthday festivities, which I totally understand,
BUT I still want to wish you a happy birthday. I hope it goes well for you, and you get everything you deserve from your friends and family.
also thanks for your vote for captain, i didn't get it but I'm glad to know somebody thought I deserved it.
ian
There are about a billion things I could say to the first communication we've had in 16 days. Not that I miss it. Okay, that is a lie. I do miss it. Not enough to admit it, even really to myself. I don't want to breed weakness in my heart anymore.
But, what would I say, if I could?
I'd say that,
Obviously I didn't invite you to my birthday because you made it so that I couldn't. You broke up with me, remember? And all I can think if we were together is that you would want to be out with new girl since Thursdays are the nights you always left me to go out with her. It is your fault you can't be there.
You only wrote me to try and get me to tell you why you weren't invited. Because then you'd get the pleasure of knowing I really wish you would be there, because then it might mean that you still cared. I was there on your birthday, even when we weren't dating. But you won't be there. You have someone else to be there for now. And it is all your fault. I hope you miss me, even if only because you can't be there tomorrow.
And did you know? I wasn't the only one who voted for you. You were the fourth candidate for captain, one point behind the other three. People have confidence in you, and I wish that I could be part of your life next year to make your senior year perfect and all that it should be. But again, it is your fault. The universe does strange things and it never gives us all that we want. And you won't really miss being captain the way I miss you, the way I'm afraid to admit to myself, but you were a part of me, and I still ache to be near you. But you will never, ever see it. My face will never betray me again to you.
Valerie
It is his fault, and any pain he feels is his to deal with. Tomorrow I turn 22 years old and nothing in the world is going to keep me from being exactly what I want to be: happy.