I haven't fallen by the wayside, despite how it might look to you. It actuality I have come up against a blockade of the sheer impossibility of attempting to describe what I am currently feeling, thinking, experiencing... Leaving college is even more draining and difficult than coming to it was. Indeed, I did attempt to do so when I arrived at Grinnell, and the results were not exactly encouraging. But you know what? I can't even attempt to now.

I took hundreds of pictures. I savored every goddamn moment I have had in the last six weeks. And still the moment came tonight. That second when I turned around and realized it was the last time I would be on campus. Okay that's a lie because I have to turn in a form tomorrow, but really it was the last time. To experience the blissful silence, the wind in the trees, the soft orange glow from the dorms and the campus center and the science building. This is my life. This is exactly where I was meant to be for the last four years. These people who came in and out of my life... they were the ones who made me the person I am proud to be (most of the time anyway, but we all have Our Moments).

I can't say goodbye. I can't summarize or paraphrase or interpret or restate in my own words. There are no words. This was my life, and now it's time to go.

To my beautiful, lovely, eternally amazing Grinnell. Like so many before me, you will always have a place in my heart.